seeing how far i’ve changed in the past 2 weeks was extremely surprised me. i’m trying to accept that i’ve changed a lot, i don’t know why but it hurts to think that you’re pretending like everything went well but it didn’t. you’re pretending like you were okay, feeling no pressure but in fact there WAS.
i don’t know but i had never like this before, feeling so numb, dissapointing, and.. sad much. i found that i didn’t enjoy what was going on this past 2 weeks.
what happened with me? i dunno, but i just wish i would turn into the old me again.